Genius is a fascinating thing. I love reading about people who “made it”. A well written autobiography is the ultimate. The problem with biological studies is that the person writing it often has a n unhealthy respect for the person he is writing about and may leave out critical detail. Above all it is often the biographers point of view and not the way the hero of the biography sees things.
It is often said that we do not appreciate something while you have it and only appreciate it once you lost it. It seems as if the reverse is true as well. The past two weeks I truly realized that we as a family missed out on because of my work. Being in a medical practice with unlimited after hours takes away so much of your family time. I am not only talking about not being at birthday parties and prize givings at school, but just not being present emotionally because you are worried about a patient or distracted by a phone call.
Today I went to see my boss to talk of my new job and decide about the future of having a limited private practice in Worcester on an after hours basis. Due to happenings at the Worcester hospital in the last few months attitudes regarding part time practices changed a lot.
After consultation and a lot of thought I agreed to NOT consider doing part time private practice. I know this will upset a lot of my faithful patients. It comes as an unexpected blow to me as well. In the end I think that it will be the best for everybody involved. I think that everybody who knows me well enough will know that I do not do things if I can’t do it full out.
I made a tough decision to close my practice that I built up over twenty one years. Perhaps I should stick to that decision and go for the new life I am building. I am sad knowing I will not be able to see and treat my patients, I really miss the interaction with you people. I miss my old team of nursing staff and the other beautiful people who worked with me as well. It is not easy to walk away from 21 years. It was a great time…
Man is the most adaptable creature on earth. I think with my recent life changing decisions I proved that to myself. I am a strong believer that, to a great extent, man is the creator of his (or her) own happiness. Part of how you experience your circumstances is a choice you have to make. The old thing of a half empty or a half full glass.
New life update:
It is truly great to be back. Home with all its luxuries, (more than two plates and cups), the kids, the pets and the beautiful people of Worcester.